Thursday, May 17, 2018

The Bill Comes Due

It was her.

After all these years there was no mistaking that high pitch, sickly sweet voice. Even over the chatter of the patrons in the crowed bar on Narendra Station, Stahl could hear that shrill tone. The timbre of her voice permeated through his Starfleet uniform and his usually impenetrable guise, shaking him to the bone. Not even the sub-zero winds of his home world of Andor could freeze him so. His body was petrified, yet he could still feel his bones reverberating from her piercing tones.

It was definitely her.

After what seemed an eternity, Stahl turned back towards the source of the sound. Slowly, they came in to view. Several Starfleet officers sat around a table sharing drinks and laughter. A Vulcan, a Bajoran, a Trill, a Betazoid, a Tellarite, and a Human wearing captain’s pips. But they didn’t matter. Sitting in the middle, standing out with her antennae and blue skin. Laughing. Happy.

It was her.

Throlo Sh’shirros.

The Butcher of 706.

It had been four years since Stahl had endured the ‘pleasure’ of her company. That had been in a mining facility on Andor 706. As a fellow servant, he had seen her work first hand. The medical facilities in the mine were limited. There were no medicines or pain killers, let alone surgical facilities. Any injuries that were not able to be mended with a bandage or a splint were amputated, and the good Doctor Sh’shirros was very good at amputation.

Stahl had been lucky, if you could call it that. He had never needed the services of Doctor Sh’shirros for more than a few cuts and abrasions. Others in the mine were not so lucky. Stahl could only look on in horror as once proud Andorians were mutilated by the Doctor. He knew there was no other treatment for them, but that did stop his feelings of anguish upon seeing his fellow broken both physically and mentally by the process.

But that wasn’t the worst of it.

When Doctor Sh’shirros arrived they vowed to use their position to help the people in the mine. During their time in the mine, Throlo helped as best she could. Eventually though, she left the facility, as all do one way or another, and there ended her responsibility to those left behind. She had promised to help them, but it seems promises mean nothing once you leave.
The slaves continued working under those abysmal conditions for several more years. It was only through the efforts of another doctor, Doctor Vreeza, that the mining facility was shut down. Doctor Vreeza had stayed in the mine, and despite increasing age and ill health, worked hard to bring the plight of those indentured there to the Andorian government. Eventually the mine was shut down, and Doctor Vreeza was a hero. Sadly he did not survive long past the closure of the mine, the increased labour of freeing the people there taking its toll on him. Perhaps if Doctor Sh’shirros had kept her promise, Doctor Vreeza…

Lost in reverie, Stahl had not noticed that his hand was bleeding. He had been clutching on to something so tight that he had sliced open his palm on the metal attached to the wooden handle. Blood slowly flowed across the serrated blade of the Ushaan-tor. The mining tool, also used in Andorian honour duels, reflected Stahl’s face back at him. Looking back at himself, he wondered if he was right to do this. He had killed before, but only out of necessity. This was revenge. How could he take revenge and yet still wear his Starfleet uniform? How could he maintain his own value of not letting anyone else get hurt unnecessarily, yet still satisfy his yearning for vengeance? Was it vengeance? Or was it justice?

Justice for all those Doctor Throlo Sh’shirros left behind.

Justice for those that died unnecessarily.

Justice for Doctor Vreeza.

The butcher’s bill comes due.

Tuesday, May 23, 2017

The Community I Call Home

Since the dawn of the internet, people have found spaces where they can congregate with other like-minded souls to discuss and share opinions about things they love. BBS, IRC, Usenet, MySpace, Facebook, Reddit, Twitter – there have been many places where communities have grown and thrived. What was important was not where the community was, but rather what it was about. Unfortunately, not all communities are equal.

Internet communities can be a mixed bag. The thin veil of anonymity that pervades the internet affords individuals the freedom to act without the fear of repercussions. Newton’s Third Law, that for every action there is an equal and opposite reaction, holds true for the physical world, but holds no weight in a world where individuals can shield themselves from the fallout of their own actions.

Some online communities are notorious for their lack or ethics or respect for their fellow humans. We have all seen these deplorable people. They are the trolls, the haters, the discordant. They are the ones that spread their brand of vile hatred beyond their own association and infect the lives of other people.

Thankfully, not every community is like this. There are safe places on the internet where people can congregate and discuss their common interests. These are places that champion ideals like respect, inclusion, and understanding. One such place that I like to call home is Geek and Sundry, and specifically the community around one of their shows – VAST.

VAST is a show about people from different backgrounds and with different ideals working together despite those difference to achieve a common goal. The show deals with difficult issues around sexuality, inclusion, existence, love, family, and betrayal. The characters deliver heart-felt and honest performances as they discover as much about themselves as about the story they tell.

It’s also an RPG, and it is set in space.

The cast of VAST

Whilst the show is arguably a masterpiece of storytelling and performance, what is most remarkable about it is the small but effervescent community that has grown around it. Through a variety of mediums, the fans of the show have built a kinship with each other that is somehow greater than the show itself. This society of ‘Vastronauts’ is built upon the same principals of the show – respect, inclusion, and fellowship.

Despite the level of anonymity afforded through cyberspace, the people of the VAST community have connected with each other in a way akin to family. Although most have never met in person, Vastronauts openly and honestly discuss issues that are socially awkward or difficult, and each is met with a compassion and grace not found in most corners of the internet. This is a testament to how the characters and players in the show respond to each other when dealing with new or difficult situations.

That is not to say that the community only deals with the more difficult issues in life. Fun and frivolity abounds with games, friendly competitiveness, and an amazing level of creativity. Barely a day goes by where the populace is not in joyful screams over a new piece of art or good news from one of its members. Giddiness abounds during the nonsense of “The Finger Gun Hour” – a self-styled period of absurdity brought on by a combination of joy and fatigue. In a community based on a game that features a transgender space cockroach and a ten dimensional entity with swag, this is not weird – it is the norm.

In a world filled with tragedy and torment, an online community such as that which has grown around VAST is a rare and special place. It is a place filled with wonderful people with open hearts. It is a light in a storm, a beacon of hope. It is a society that build joys, champions inclusion, and cares of its members.


It may be small, but its power is vast.

Thursday, March 30, 2017

Blocked and Broken

I am a member of a couple of fandoms, to varying extents. One of those that I love is a show I watch on a regular basis. Because of the show, I have become a lot more active on social networks and forums.

Today, one of the cast of the show I love blocked me on Twitter after I made a comment that they deemed to be inappropriate. 

Firstly, I don't blame them for that. They have every right to block anyone they want for any reason. I am not writing this to get back at them or embarrass them - in fact I am not even going to name them or the show. I love them and I love their show. That will never change.

Secondly, I am not defending my tweet. I was trying to be my usual clever, humorous and friendly self and that backfired. The tweet was definitely not one of my best. I wasn't happy with it when I posted it, and I fully regret it. I didn't in any way mean to be insulting, demeaning, creepy, or anything else. That's not who I am.

The reason I am writing this is because I feel guilty. Very guilty. Guilty to the point where I am having a panic attack. I hate the idea that I may have made someone feel uncomfortable, particularly in their own home or other safe place.

To the person who I have offended, I hope you read this and know that I am sorry. I am not looking for a response. I am not asking to be unblocked. I just want you to know I am sorry, and I hope you can forgive me.

-M

Thursday, June 18, 2015

Felicia, Finkle, and Felix...

I was sitting at work the other day, bored out of my gourd as usual, when I decided I would flick on a video to watch in the background while my boss wasn't looking.

I am a regular watcher of Geek and Sundry on Twitch, and by regular I mean every Friday at noon when Critical Role comes on (thank you time zones!). If you don’t know Critical Role, it is nine of the best voice actors around playing D&D live and uncensored. I started watching a few sessions in and got hooked – I even bought the T-shirt. I try to watch it at work, but it is kind of hard with an open planned office. I end up putting it on the more private of my two screens and tabbing out whenever I hear someone start to move from their desk.  Anyway, I think I have gone a little off point…

So I switched on to the Geek and Sundry Twitch stream from E3. I wasn't really into it, so I flicked over to Felicia Day’s channel (the founder of Geek and Sundry), not expecting it to be live, but just to check it out. It turns out she was streaming live whilst playing “Cook, Serve, Delicious!”. I had previously watched a video of the game being played by Felicia and her brother Ryon, so was familiar with the premise.

Firstly, I was amazed by how well she multi-tasked. I was having trouble reading chat and watching the stream at the same time, and yet she was playing the game, reading the stream, and carrying on a conversation to those watching (swearing like a sailor). I have seen her in a few things and am always amazed at how happy and vibrant she is. I don’t know if it’s an “on camera” thing, but it is quite inspiring to someone who is rarely as happy. Again, I digress…

I liked the stream so I subbed and started making some comments in chat (all nice, no trolling). Felicia was answering some of the messages and I was trying to make some intelligent comments in the hopes that she might respond. No luck. I kept trying to make insightful and/or witty remarks however they never made it to her attention. C’est la vie…

As is my way, when I get to the end of the day and go to bed my brain starts buzzing – coming up with new ideas, reviewing old ones, fantasizing about what I would do if I were a Jedi – the usual stuff one thinks about at the end of a long day.  I started thinking about why I was commenting on the stream. After a few hours of following various trains of thought I kept asking myself a simple question: why was I looking for validation from someone I don’t know?

I like to consider myself as being a fairly intelligent person. I not particularly social and spend much of my time on my own, which I am comfortable with for the most part. I don’t like being the centre of attention and shun the spotlight. I always thought of myself as a classic introvert. I’m rather introspective and like to exam both my thoughts and actions. This can often get me into trouble with my own brain as while a little self-examination can be good, a lot can be dangerous, and time + lack of external stimulus = very dangerous.

Don’t worry, there is a point to this...

So, given all those aspects of my personality, why was I making comments on a Twitch stream hoping that someone would answer me? Despite all my tendencies this would seem to be the opposite of my own psyche. This invariably led me to one conclusion:

Everything I thought I knew about myself was wrong.

Case in point: I play D&D once a week (usually). My current character is Finkle Fizzlebottom, Gnome Wizard Extraordinaire (his back-story will go up on my other blog after I have finished that of Raxogar the Paladin). For anyone that knows RPGs, wizards don’t wear any armour and should never be at the head of the group. Yet, as I now realize, I was always trying to lead the group, more than often from the front. I had done this with my previous wizard character, one Lord Argul Montok (a fire Genasi who was a bit of an ass), and he promptly died on his first outing after a spectre popped its head out of a door he was trying to open and proceeded to rip his soul from his body (ahhh… good times…). Looking back at previous D&D characters I saw that I had the same tendencies to try to lead the group. It also led me to realize that I often end up playing the “tank” (a character with high armour and health that is designed to take punishment) in MMORPGs like World of Warcraft or Star Wars:  The Old Republic. Despite me thinking that all I want to do is hide in the background and go unnoticed, all along I had been standing out front as the most visible member of the group. Being the tank also means more often than not you are the leader of any group, which further exacerbates the point.

My best friends recently had a baby and called him Felix. He’s a nice little bub, although I am deathly afraid of holding him. He doesn't really add anything to this story, I just wanted to use the name in the title as it made for good alliteration…

So because I skived off work for about half an hour and watched an internet entrepreneur play a video game about cooking food in a restaurant I realized I had been lying to myself for the last thirty years.

Thank you Felicia Day. I am in your debt.

Sunday, April 20, 2014

TV, Movies, Games, and more...

Every now and then I get a little bit creative and come up with an idea for TV show, movie, video game, etc. Probably about half the time I  forget about it before I have a chance to put pen to paper (I normally come up with the ideas while I am trying to sleep, or during that time in the morning when you are half awake and have some control over your dreams). Every now and then though I am able to recall the idea long enough to get something down so that I can then elaborate on it later. I recently shared a couple of my ideas with a friend of mine and he made some good points about them which I had not considered, and which if addressed properly could greatly improve on the stories. So here are a couple of my ideas (FYI if you steal my ideas I will hunt you down and make you eat your own weight in haggis!):

Bounty 

A TV show set 100 years in the future about a mid-20s brother and sister combo of bounty hunters and their crew as they fly around the inner solar system catching criminals, doing random jobs, and figuring out their place in an increasing corrupt world. Sort of a live-action Cowboy Bebop, or an alternate side of Firefly. 


The main characters, Scott and Penny Lawson, are the twin children of a deceased bounty hunter Roger Lawson.  They inherited his space ship and along with their fathers former colleague, a former special-forces soldier and now pacifist Maurice Johnson, have just started to make a living following in their fathers footsteps. Along the way through various means they recruit several new crew members, including a career con man, a young girl with a gift for technology, and about three others that I am still trying to figure out.

Fallen

A video game about an angel Sam (Samael), who is kicked out of heaven for defying orders. Sam can at times be regarded as both good and evil, and as he fights through earth, heaven, and hell to find where he belongs the player must decide which path to take. Decisions are not always black and white, often they are varying shades of grey, and it is up to the player to make the decision as to who they want Sam to be, e.g. a Holy warrior with no mercy, a merciful assassin, a destroyer of worlds, or a pacifist. I am still trying to figure out what format this game will take, it seems to be leading me towards a hack-and-slash but I am not sure if that is the type of game I want it to be.


I know religion is a dangerous genre to play with in computer games, so this game is not meant to be an evangelical statement. It will include some religious characters but it is not meant to be a religious story, rather a story about good and evil and how they can often seem to be not that far opposite to each other.

Modern Ninja


Another video game, this one is an action-adventure/stealth games in a similar mode as the Hitman series. Set in the present day, you play as a ninja who has just finished his/her training when their clan is disowned and destroyed. Vowing vengeance (ok, not that original here, I know), he aligns him/herself with various factions and organizations, learning modern skills and weapons to complement his ninja training in order to to avenge his/her clan.


What I want to achieve here is a game where you can play it any way you want - you can go in guns blazing and kill everyone in sight, use your classical ninja training or stealth and secrecy and achieve your objectives without anyone noticing you, use high-tech equipment and the latest weapons, or go old-school and use your fists and classic ninja weapons. I really want to open it up what a classical ninja would be in the modern day.

I know some people will recall the classical ninja stereotype and say " A ninja using guns!?!?!? That's just wrong", but if you look at what ninjas actually where it is not that improbable that they would use guns if they existed in the modern age. Ninjas where created to accomplish goals that a samurai, because of their Bushido (a samurai's moral code), could not. A ninja was not bound to honor and was designated with achieving their objective by any means necessary. Pop culture often depicts ninjas in black garb, but usually ninjas where hidden in plain clothes or using disguises so as not to draw attention.


I have a few more ideas, but they are not yet as clear or fleshed out as the three here. I have done a lot more work on these than what is shown here, but I would be interested in any feedback.


Saturday, February 22, 2014

D-Generation Strikes Again...

Well, not quite.  The mighty D-Generation of the North Shore Cricket Club were defeated by Cammeray today, but we played well and had a great day.  Here are some photos from our batting innings...


PP starts off the innings
PP starts off the innings
I had no idea where this one went...
The boys watch on
Nice form
Good job boys, keep it going
Big D goes for a ig one
Back into battle after the drinks break
Go for it PP!
Brent hits out
Run boys!
Waddaya lookin at?
Great shot Rak!
Brent survives a close run out chance
The beautiful Gore Creek Reserve
Back at the pub
Who is that vagabond drinking a bourbon and coke?
So an Englishman and an Australian walk into a bar...
Our illustrious leader finally arrives
Next week is our last match, hopefully we can put on a great performance against Comenarra.  Thanks to Alain and Mini-PP for helping out with the photos.

Monday, May 13, 2013

Ground Control to Commander Chris...

I had been aware of some the awesome photos taken by Commander Chris Hadfield while he has been aboard the International Space Station, but I didn't know he had been shooting video as well until now. As he is about to leave the ISS behind, he made what is probably the most expensive video clip ever.



Welcome back, Commander.